My energy these days

 

Sometimes, I miss my best friends and the good old days when we sharing laughter and adventures. 

It was just a simple days by hanging out in the café, working on our assignment and then eating out in the mall with our limited money that day. 

Following the trip, we visited one of our shares house, and shares story until it got dark, having dinner by cheap meals such as rice with egg or an instant noodle to close the day. 

I realized it was simple, but a rizq. I never though will miss the days this much. 

Today, I feel very lonely, my energy is drained by working too much but have no place to call home. I miss those laughters. After graduated from bachelor, I spend days with my boyfriend which now is my husband. We had master and got separated by different timezone. Days was quite hard. When it was London vs. Melbourne, I still got friends and days to enjoy. Sometimes, I went to oxford street, working on assignment in campus and meet my friends. I was still socializing with people during my first phase of Long Distance Relationship. However, it was getting harder this day when I have no one to meet on the weekend. My conversation with husband getting harsher. It was not his mistake, but I feel hard to control myself, my anger, and my disappointment. 

I realize that I miss connection with people. I miss the days when I was acknowledged that I am exist or when I tell stories people excited about. Along this days, I don't know what should I do to get my mood and energy back.