Hi, world
Today marks my 5 month in London. A sunny morning in February starts my hustling morning when my physical body is getting weaker because of much activity I did in the last couple of days. In the amidst of the hectic week because of the academic life is began to be serious, I took time to travel to Canterbury, Battersea, and Westfield White City. Spending much money was a no, but then I gained the experience and some warms from people who always makes my heart got stronger to face the London fast life.
The monday, is today. When the sun shines brightly, I started my day by constructing Ikea clothes airer, cooked for breakfast and did groceries. Meals prep was the longest part of today, followed by 2 meeting that I have to prepare with. The ongoing discussion of health improvement really drained my energy because maybe my negative thought of the people. I have to make this perception better in order to keep my energy during the discussion.
But then, I just started to think about my life again. One more time, I tried to find myself, in Canterbury, in the discussion room and in the crowd of people in Presidential election yesterday. I remembered the spark of meeting my friends (although it was not complete as Wales) but it warms my heart a bit. Our laugh might not be as long as the Wales trip were but I got to know them better, and having time with Azy and Amila who makes this trip unique I suppose. I also like to disappear from people and then just enjoyed the solitude and finding out what really matters in life.
The discussion room in health improvement, again validating my broken English, this time is the way I listened to the un-native speaker, my friends with their accents areee harder to understand than the native themselves. But I realize that I have to speak my opinion and ideas. I prepared for the meeting and everything is actually on track. I hope my learning process is on track too. I know that my energy is drained easily but I have to keep up and again took a deep breath before starting the discussion again.
The presidential election, I think one of the warmest moment I felt in this february. I saw so many friends, familiar faces and talked to some, got some exciting news and hacks. Sometimes, I felt that I was never alone in this big London if this presidential election is like... one in a month! haha. Thank you for showing up friends, I really cherished the moment.
All in all, I think the 5th month is really a miracle, when I felt so much feeling and sensation. I felt my rooted emotions is getting better and when the rain comes down again, I know what to do although I need to cry and curse myself a bit before getting up and make things done. Sometimes, I felt so much in despair when I felt alone but I know people will answer my messages and sometimes met me. I know that I could not rely everything on human and still be independent, but seeking helps once in a moment is okay too. I am still the way I am, but more honest and strong, and also getting better, emotionally and physically.
Thank you for the 5 wonderful month London, I am cherishing for another 7 or more
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