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A storm? I never expect would experience this crazzy climate things called storm. It was such a scarry night to remember while my emotions was also unstable.
I felt like this world was crazzy, I have everything but still felt I am lacking something. I have to believe that I am enough just it. Whatever happens whenever it is, the reason behind this situation is that Allah brought me to this situation must be followed by a lesson to learn.
It was such a crazzy weekend when I finally submitted my last assignment and finish my first term. However, in the same time I also started my second term, excited but tired. Because of what? because my friendship problem which occupied my head for so long. Consequently, I tried to solve the problems wrongly which really sucked in my head. Additionally, more more more stupidly, I broke my accommodation faucet.
I understand that I was unstable because of my hormonal imbalance. I felt so lonely because all of the dopamine gave me happiness at the beginning of thing month, I felt lacking and keep searching for it. The moment when I lose it, I lose every happiness in my life, but in fact, everything just perfect di the perfect place except my dopamine rush.
I try to understand that the way I solve problems should be different than before. I have to seek a moment, not to rush a moment to solve. Keep my emotions stable and sabr strong. Whenever I felt unproductive, I must go out from my room and opened my laptop to do anything.
Today, I lost my student ID, but I felt like losing my world. I cried because of my stupidity. The reason why I felt so careless is frustrating. But then I understand that this world will never be any kinder, but I must go stronger.
It was a strorm last night, and so did my emotions. But, I understand that I can never conquer the storm, I must wait patiently, did everything I can do to be productive; and never blame myself for the storm
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