Everything is just too much

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Isnt it just too much? 

Im just wondering how i can feel enough of myself. My heart just sucks everything I have a request to other people.

Is everything I asked too much?

Whenever I request, it will be served less. I am just speechless. Am I that worthless to be given the same I asked? 

I have been warned but I always deny.

I lied. The future is really out of my control but in fact. They has predicted some. I believe the prediction is wrong by giving some statement. But in fact, what I was saying is a lie.

Why, the world that comes to me. Im that sinner to be put this situation, but how can I repent? Everything is just so wrong.

I am not dreaming compared to other people it is just mu wishlist.

But again, it is still too much